Life went on because…

How could you simply write and not have a major reaction on what happened to you? “What do you mean”, I asked? You know what I mean, you didn’t blow up. 🔥 Actually, I did! I just didn’t implode! You see, I did not blow up 💣 because my entire world was not wrapped around this man. Yes, life goes on because I had a life before I met him. Readers, my center is God, then me and everyone else came after. 🙏🏽 I am not one of those folks, who, once married, 💍 I disconnect with my family and friends, and lost who I am. I’m not one who transform and morph into the significant other and cannot find me! Yes, Readers, I could have wallowed in self-pity. I was able to cut the cord. The key 🔑 to my sanity is, I never lost my core being. Readers, I could not allow this forked tongue 🐍 man, with the entourage of a vindictive ex and a side piece, with a 2-year-old-kid, destroy who I am. My mom would have been very dissapointed in me, because I would have forgotten her teaching, ‘you are not attached to anyone!’

Furthermore, I could have absolutely and rightfully become bitter and hateful, as I learned the depths of his betrayal over the past five months. The jealous rage of the ex informing me that there is a 2-year old child involved; learning the side piece lives appx 15 minutes driving 🚘 distance from my home; learning he had both of those women on his car insurance policy for at least 8 years, is enough to be angry 😤 and bitter! However, the first thing I did was to forgive him, as I cannot retain this toxic venom on the inside, it’s unhealty. He is not a good example for his children, he is an embarrassment to his entire family, he has proven to be a liar and untrustworthy. Readers, he will have to answer to God. There are consequences and that is between him and Jesus.
Gurl, with all the stuff you know now, you are better than me!” Karma is a bitch, I say. I further say, vengeance is God’s. Through work and other affiliations, I see many folks who have allowed a significant other push them over the edge, I won’t be one of them. Besides, that’s too much wasted time and energy to spend on losers and besides, shit always adjust itself. Listen, I have one concern, I am just praying for an uncontested divorce.

I say all of that to say, this simply means that when this man gave me that impactful punch of a mistress and a two-year old child and is still with his ex as a cover-up, sure I was angry, tearful, hurt, etc., but my life went on because God heard my cry and will dry my tears! Yes, it went on even though I gave him a good great loving wife and a good portion of my time. I survived devised schemes, their wicked plans, and his two-faced, double-minded infidelity. Readers, it went on because my support system was in place. It went on through COVID-19. Through this dark chapter of my life in 2020, I had the knowledge and wherewithall to call on God and pray, call my family, friends and find a therapist to support me. My life will continue to go on… Thank you Jesus for your protection and mercy 🙏🏽

Keep your head up!🥰

Positive affirmation: i will always be better and do better. My duty is to help others.

Romans 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.