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Fools get fooled too!

There are some folks who did not meet their biological father (parent), until adulthood. Some never will. Why? It varies – as a result of a child being born after a war, military stationed, vacation stop, death, drugs, adoption, moved, one-night stand, affair, or just plain denial and lies…

Not every affair or cheating episode result in a child being born. But some do. In one of his radio episodes, Michael Baisden stated, in part, swab kid mouth and get a DNA, whether one is married or not. I did not take offense after hearing many stories, but many of the listeners who called in did. One guy stated he found out the kid was not his when she was in her 40s and to him, it did not matter. He says, he could not undo their whole entire relationship from birth.

Sometimes cheaters think they are fooling the spouse by sneaking around to do the dirty. What they may not realize is that he/she may be seeing other folks as well. I say, play around with dogs, one will get fleas. That fool, is being fooled too! Another name is hoodwinked, deceived, tricked, duped, fooled, cover-up (dumbass – sorry, just thinking out loud)! Cheaters are so busy being fake, they do not realize the trickery going on when jezebel is plotting: “Who has time to wait until he comes back in town”. “I’m not going to collect cobwebs and wait for him to show up after weeks or months.” “He is married and there is no commitment, so I can see whoever I want”. No one is calling anyone a hoe, but – Well, it gets complicated. Who’s the daddy? Pick one of the many she may be sleeping with! I saw a show on television where a teenage boy wanted to know who his father was and the man at the podium wanted a relationship with the boy. He told the judge years ago when he sent for a DNA, there was another boy’s name on his DNA result and at the time he did not understand; and that boy was not the father. The judge announced the results of this man’s DNA one the show — he was not the boy’s father, either. This means as a teenager, she was sleeping with at least three boys (these two were not the boy’s father – the boy was devastated and mom was embarrassed). Public Service Announcement (PSA), firstly, keep your personal package in your pants, except for your spouse! However, if one is cheating and did not wear a condom or a condom burst – DNA is the only option after a child is born. Please also note if one was dipping in the sauce, well, there is a possibility that if a pregnancy comes along, one may get a finger pointed at them. Maury says, “you are not the father!” Or you may very well be the father. Even though, a lot of feelings will be hurt, but the truth will come out. Otherwise, the more one lies, the more one has to cover the lies. Truth be told, most men do not want any part of this outside child. In fact, most run off.

Readers, everyone says, I let nonsense break up my marriage. I left my husband because he was not man enough to tell me he cheated. Also left because my husband is a liar. Yes, Readers, whether a woman is 18 or 65 and know a man is married, she may not care, and will spread eagle. My husband knew he is married to me and it did not stop him from cheating. My husband is a loser. A two-year old child is out there and her momma has not had DNA done and hides the child – who does that? My friends have asked me, so why did I kick him out? The child has nothing to do with me. Again, my deal breaker was when that vagina and his penis met! Our marriage vows were disrespected by my husband, not her. No amount of begging from my husband can restore our marital relationship. Whether the child is his or not, it does not matter to me –that would only make him one of the biggest fool ever. Even cons may get conned.

Denial sometimes make folks think, if ignored, the problem may go away. It will not go away. Folks tell me Shhhh! I am over everyone telling me to stop talking about this. Although some folks opt not to respond on the blog itself, (if that continues, I may stop posting my truth), however, my messenger inbox is loaded with kind words, and thank you. This is helping me heal. Families may get upset about my publicizing my life, it really does not matter to me, as some may be enablers. You see Readers, in my culture, it is acceptable that, uh, just punish him (yep, like time out), and then all will be sweet roses again. No one was responsible to tell me, expect my husband. He did not. Yet some folks knew for years. Sometimes folks get a good laugh, until it is their turn to dance this devastating twist. It irks me that folks are so quick to say it is not my business, but is it their business to say go back? Well, I say, a rose cannot grow in the dark only, else it will become wilted. A rose needs sunshine and fresh water. My husband kept me in the dark. Further, when one lies, omits or cover-up for a family member or friend, one becomes a co-conspirator and enabler – I could not bring myself to tell you! It wasn’t my place to tell you. Either way it will come out because darkness cannot overshadow sunlight. Thus everyone gets hurt in the long run – the tiny problem becomes a tsunami. Fools get fooled!

Positive Affirmation: I am wonderfully made by God. (Psalm 139:14)

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Safety First

Everyone has a name for this woman who had sex with my husband. Some say that I have allowed her to be a homewrecker, some call her delilah, the wicked witch, slutty, among other names. It may be so, but I say, it takes two!

Putting a loved one at risk, may not be intentional, but rather, selfish, thoughtless and careless, at best. Yes, most agree that folks who do not respect a woman or a man wearing a wedding ring and makes advances shows a lack of self-respect that is daunting and unsettling. It is notable to say, sticks and stones in stating those names may be applicable and may be so, but I still say, again —it takes two!

Society seems to take sex lightly. The excuse mostly is it did not mean anything. Why do it in the first place? Quick pleasure, a boost to the ego, the excitement of sneaking around, or perhaps boredom?

Readers, think about this. Alright, if one did not wear a condom, technically, it meant one had sex with everyone that person have had sex with. Take this example, Readers. If someone were to put neon paintball on his jacket, and decides to hug another person, what do you think will happen? Well, that person will get paint on them, too, right? And, if that person hugs each subsequent person, each person who hugs them, hugs someone else, when the lights shine on each one, everyone would have neon markings on them. Please accept this analogy as a public service announcement of how venereal disease such as gonorrhea, syphilis, HIV/AIDs and others spread like wildfire. Each time one sleeps with one person who may be sleeping around, they get to share whatever disease that person has. I try to teach folks safety first, and I want my Readers to be informed. Some of these folk are ill, but darn it, they look good, as they are curvy, chunky, buffed, not scrawny and gaunt.

When I met my husband nine years ago, I took him to Planned Parenthood for testing. I supposed he got so comfortable, he forgot. No one understood why I put him out the same night I found out he had a two-year old child. I thought our marriage was above infidelity. I guess I was stupid. I was broken from the shock. I was alone and torn. But God! I say it again, His grace and mercy has kept me through this emotional rollercoaster. My faith in Him has lifted me up. He has strengthen me beyond belief. I trust in Him for his guidance and accept whatever pathway He is leading me to. He will supply all of my needs.

I asked a 21 year old young women, “how did you contract HIV” she answered, “while I was pregnant, they ran a blood test at the clinic”. She does not appear to be emaciated or look sick. She appears to be in great health on the outside. She takes her medications daily and does not use a condom. There goes the paintball, Readers!

Food for thought, after the act one may feel ashamed and regretful, but that may be short lived, as the excitement of getting away with it may overtake the senses. Avoid pregnancy by simply putting on a condom. My husband did not. If one is going to cheat, please protect your spouse. Well, you know.

I hope those who advise me to stay, have a better understanding from my perspective. Yes, he wants to come back, yes he promised it will never happen again, My trust is gone. I cannot immerse my head like an ostrich in the sand. That is my choice. It should never have happened in the first place. Snip, snip!

Positive affirmation: Each one, teach one!

Tags adultery, betrayal, breakup, cheating, fornication, health, infidelity, international, marriage

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I Ain’t Too Proud to Beg

I have said, that I have had to block numerous folks from both my phone and my life. When God has given you peace, you do not want to go back to the drama again. I am not distraught, nor angry, rather I have clarity. I am slowly getting to a peaceful place. Readers, prayer works and if we say that God is in control, it is oxymoronic to keep saying, “the devil did it, so you need to go back to your husband”. My response, besides expletives I dare not say aloud, is “the act of infidelity was evil, because my husband dishonored his marriage vows”. What does infidelity mean —the action or state of being unfaithful to a spouse. I can, and have forgiven him. I may have left the gates opened when I worked nights and did not see my husband for a few days at a time as he works days and our schedules were hectic. I may have taken our marriage for granted and thought it was fine. Things could have been rocky from his standpoint, but he never said a thing. I’m not making excuses because I could have been ever present, and fornication would have gotten through. Readers, for me, the act and getting involved all over again with a kid attached to a mother, is indeed, a deal breaker.

Folks are so concerned to tell me, “why are you putting your business out there”? I feel that, this is not only my business. This is anybody’s story who has ever experienced being cheated on and/or will someday experience it, as this affects, wife, husband, partners, children, grandchildren, friendships and households across the board. This is a teaching moment. It takes courage to fight through the talks, the looks, the pity party, and the watch party. It also takes courage to stand your ground in whatever direction the decision may take you.

Yes, there are mean-spirited folk who could not care less about me and how I am managing. There are those who may take advantage of the situation. There are those because of strife, who may harbor hatred in their heart. However, when his ex-wife, out of spite and anger, told me that he had a two-year old daughter with another woman – I thanked her and told her she had given me a gift to open my eyes. Why do I feel this way? Only because he, nor his family, would have never told me. If it were up to him, he would never say a word. Well, Readers, she has since text me how I have ruined her paternal relationship with him and her family and stated “you got what you deserve”. To that end, I say-again, what she meant for evil, when she told me in order to hurt me, God meant it for my good! I really appreciative that I know. I have been made aware and have taken a stand. It was a personal and individualized choice.

Over the past few weeks, I spoke with God and apologized for not seeking Him first prior putting my husband out. God knows my heart and know my tolerance level. Readers, I will always say, my husband is a nice person. I will not bad mouth him. Please note that I had to cut the cord to our marital relationship cold-turkey. I knew my husband would talk his way, back, therefore, I avoided him and even blocked him from my phone. He and his family looked in my face all this time and kept a well hidden secret.

He ain’t too proud to beg. Calls, text, or if he was not parked by the house and waiting showed he wanted to get back in with a snap. Unfortunately, due to mutual household issues, he finagled his way back to visit when I’m off or after work to help out with one thing or another. Apologizing, begging and telling me, God will make this work. And, how are we supposed to move on and not keep rehashing. Yes, Readers, he apologized 50 billion times. ‘I’m so sorry. I wish I could take it back.” And I’m Sorry… I did not mean to hurt you (you did). And, get this, he says to move on and let it go. He says, let’s go to therapy (that hour would never be long enough). He says he would make more time for us (7 days should be 8, oh, boy). Begging and telling me to take him back, we will start over and drop everything. Is he kidding me? What about this kid, how does she fit in? Yep, I am like a Pitbull, I will not just simply jaw drop it and move on. Readers, I am not the kinda gal who shares a man. I was faithful. I was the ride or die spouse. I gave my all in this marriage. No desperation here, as it would eat at me from the inside. The questions keep coming in my head each time I see him. I just wanted the truth. However, I may never get it. Can closure be achieved without ever knowing some things? I think it can, perhaps at a slower pace. Therefore, the best thing is goodbye for my peace of mind. There is no going back for me. I have chosen to move on, alone in a more peaceful and therapeutic manner.

I have heard folks unload to me their innermost pain, that was bottled and hidden for years. Blogging and talking about my experience is therapeutic not only for me, but for so many others.

This woman, was a greeter at a chain store I met this week. All she simply said to me was, smile! I said, lady, I have a lot on my mind. She said what could possibly be wrong. And I told her. She stayed on point and continued to greet each passerby. She said, listen, and told me that she came from Haiti with 4 kids with a man who was a pastor. She stated he never married her and asked that she just put a ring on for their church members’ observation. She said it irked her and she knew it was not pleasing to God that she continued to live in sin, but he provided for them. She said one day she had a dream and saw a young woman cuddling with her husband and she started beating her in her dream and the young girl stated, “don’t hit me anymore, I am pregnant”. She stated, at that Sunday service she met the young woman. She said, she continue to pray and never kicked her husband out. He simply left one day and never looked back. She said he married three other times and could never find what he was looking for. She said, my kids are grown now and I remain in with the Lord.

My husband is trying and pleading for us to get back together. He states, I have given you space, I still try to help with household expenses (I do not take), I tried to talk to you (I have a great memory, a diary and a cell phone timeline that reveals all lies) Before I blocked him again, he states, “I am going to get my wife back”. No, no you are not! Why? –You never told me. I had to learn of your dirty act, from your ex-wife, who hates my guts! — No need to crawl, or beg. I mean what I say, and I say what I mean. When there continues to be lies, there could be no reconciliation. The answer is “No! we are not getting back together. It’s over”!

Today is the eve of the one-month mark of our separation and I am at a good place right now. Yes, I am feeling myself and looking inward — I like the me I see. I had a rough and fatiguing week with car problems and a lot of trash talk. I got my nails done and that was just for me and it feels good. I blog, I write, I see a therapist – that helps me sigh and breathe freely to relieve stress. I eat take-out, folks unload their stories and tell me, girl, I’ve been there. Our pain is shared and we are not alone. I have a few great friends come see about me and I have some folks that just listen and at times, allow me to be me. Slowly, I am taking it one day at a time. I support every person who stays, who leaves or is simply contemplating and seeking God’s wisdom.

Positive Affirmation: I can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens me.

Tags adultery, breakup, cheater, cheating, Family, infidelity, international marriage, marriage

Family

Oh no, 9 years gone!

It was just after Christmas, but before New Year 2020. I got a call from my husband’s ex-wife, through a third party. “I’ve been looking for you since Thanksgiving” I immediately thought, Wow, that’s strange. Although she is blocked from my phone, her children have my number. However, I pretended to humor me to see what could she possibly have to tell me. I asked the person to do three-way call, and the ex-wife stated in a long drawn out statement as follows: I know we do not see eye to eye, but you are a woman and I am a woman, and I would want to know if it were me. Oh boy, I thought, she has promised to break us up and I gotta hear this good or bad. I said, what is it? She blurted out, “he has a two-year old child.” She went on to say some other stuff at this point sounded like white noise. I remember telling her thank you.

I confirmed this with another relative, who blurted out, that he had recently learned of this child, his new niece, a day after Christmas and stated if they did not tell me, he was going to because he felt I was great to the family, and did not deserve this.

Readers, please note the child does not belong to the ex-wife!

I think I Face-time my bestie/ ride or die high-school buddy, and she asked what is all the ruckus going on in the background. I stated, he is not home, but I am in the middle of kicking out my cheating husband, who fathered a child during the course of our marriage. My husband has a 2 or 3 year-old daughter, and it took 9 months to produce, which means the affair happened at least 4 years ago if not longer.

The feeling of anger, betrayal, stupidity, humiliation, embarrassment is indeed part of my experience and throwing all of his belonging into the garage helped me closer towards facing my ordeal. My husband is a liar!

To say surprised, shock is an understatement. Yes, the ex-wife meant it for evil, but indeed it was the greatest gift! Readers, you are thinking, is she crazy! No I’m saying there were changes, distance, space, that up to this. Our travel, date nights, time together, him always working, arguments about working too much, less vacations, left a gap. We loved hard, passionate even though I am over a decade his senior. Now I am able to put my finger on that widening gap.

When my husband came home and opened the garage door, all of his belongings, suits, pants, dress shirts, gym clothes, shoes, sneakers, sports coat, belts, underwear, etc. had felled on the garage door. I did not want to look at his face. He has been lying for at least 3-4 years. My husband lied and as I see it, he would have never told me. He said, “I am sorry, I did not know how to tell you”.

After he left with his belongings, I went to bed and felt broken and shattered. I rebuked him and did not want him to speak to me. I now in the darkness of the night had a million questions. Things would not ever be the same between us. I have forgiven him already, as I laid there in the bed. Remember, forgiveness was not for him, it is for me. I stayed in the quietness of the wee hours of the morning as a cell phone which fell and cracked within its case. Broken but strong in its case! I just suffered a loss. I am grieving. Hang in there, I told myself.

I’ts been about a little over a week and I am better. Through prayer, song, church, family friends, my faith has kept me. Find your strong tower. My strong self, the support of family and friends, are my sounding board. However, I know I have to speak with a therapist.

I have heard more stories in the past week than I could ever imagine. A lot of hurt folks dealing with affairs, cheating, outside children. Do I blame the child’s mother, the ex-wife? No, I do not. The minute I found out that my husband invited and entertained an affair with the culmination of a penis and vagina meeting, it was over. I have heard folks tell me so what, girl. Take him back! I wouldn’t lose a good man like that. You have been so happy over the last seven years. Girl, you are not the first and you won’t be the last. I am not responsible for anyone else, but me. My experience, my choice.

I would love to hear about your experience, if you would like to write about it. If not, feel free to comment on my post.

This is a free-non-judgment zone. I will attempt to post at my leisure and express myself, as I see fit. This is my experience, it does not suggest or impose on anyone else’s experience, nor should it suggest one should do what I did. Everyone’s experience is different, may be handled differently, it is a personal choice and should not be judged on their experience. Feel free to express or comment respectfully. More to come. You are invited. Keep it PG.

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